Suicidal, depressed, anxious? How to hang in there?

There’s no one way to do this. Personally, I just tried to focus on the things I did enjoy about life and rid myself of those things that I didn’t . . . not necessarily rid myself for good of them, just while I was hanging on. So yeah, that meant that I drank a lot, and smoked weed and hung out with friends. It meant I watched a lot of sports and TV shows I liked. Most importantly though, it also meant that I let curiosity back into my life.

That’s the one I want you to focus on. Not necessarily curiosity but whatever you find it is for you. Go back to a time when you remember being happy or doing something that made you happy. DO NOT LET IT BE A PERSON! I know it may be but this is your life, you need to find you and no matter how much you think your happiness may have been because of them, it wasn’t. You simply let them pull it out of you or maybe they just knew how. Others will know too but you need to learn what it takes to pull it out of yourself. Listen! I'm somewhat hypocritical in saying that because I waited 4 years throughout high school for a girl and then 6 years after high school for another only to end up dating neither of them. One of the things though that I realized made me happy was the potential for love, the prospect of it, the joy of it. That could be something you hold onto and search for but just keep in mind that that comes with A LOT of heartbreak. On both sides.

Go back to that time when you were happy and start to try to regain that through doing those things, pursuing them or whatever. You’re just hanging around anyway so you might as well.