Suicidal, depressed, anxious? Are you alone?

I can tell you that you aren’t alone but we all know or knew that already, at least literally and logically speaking. It doesn’t matter though does it? It’s the feeling of being alone and that feeling just increases when people say things like “you’re not alone.” It shows that they just don’t understand that it’s a feeling and not a physical or intellectual or even spiritual thing.

It’s easy to see that you are not alone, it’s even easy to understand that others have been suicidal or depressed or anxious but those things don’t necessarily or usually translate into feeling like you are not alone. The physical, intellectual, logical and spiritual aspects of not being “alone” may be all you have though right now despite the feeling of being alone. Hold on to those things as tight as you can until you do find that feeling of not being alone or that feeling finds you and then hold onto it with all your might!

I was fortunate in that I had a close family (even if I didn’t like them at the time) but I shunned them regardless and focused on a community of friends that I had that at times even went down to one or two. I liked being alone though most of the time. Maybe you don’t. Go somewhere you like, do something you like. I use to like to go to the bar by myself and grab a couple drinks whether I talked to someone or not. Just feeling the physical presence of others gave me that sense of not being physically alone which I could translate intellectually and spiritually to not being alone. Sometimes, I would imagine that there were others going through the same internal crises that I was there. And there probably were some. I started to join groups and attend events that I liked and that helped me feel less alone. It’s something, it’s a way to hang in there until you can find that . . . real permanent feeling.