Why do I feel this way?

It’s probably a combination of things but one of the things that seems to be fairly common is that something happened that drastically changed your outlook on life. You probably went from believing, feeling, thinking, living, trusting and even knowing that a certain thing, circumstance or reality was true to the realization that it’s not or it’s not the way you thought it was.

Maybe your parents got divorced and you went from believing that things were stable and good or that love was what they embodied or that family was inseparable or that one or each one of them was perfect. Most kids idolize their parents and when something like divorce happens, the reality of your idol comes crashing down.

Maybe you went being popular or cool at school or maybe just unnoticed and then something embarrassing happens or a rumor gets spread or you do something bad/wrong. Next thing you know, you can’t walk down the halls in peace anymore or no one wants to be seen around you let alone talk to you or be your friend.

Maybe you realized you were gay or trans and the prospect of coming out or living that life or even being that way is too much to deal with.

Maybe you got divorced and didn’t want to, or you lost your job or your business or your home.

Whatever it is, you probably went from certainty to uncertainty in a significant area of your life or an area that you thought would never change. Now you just don’t know what to do. It will take time to figure out another way or regain the appropriate level of trust.

Hang in there though! You will figure it out.