One day, one thing
Maybe it’s one thing one day. Well, one thing in a day is probably the clearest way to say it.
It will seem to hard to believe for those who haven’t experienced depression or been suicidal but doing the simplest thing can seem like climbing a mountain. No matter how easy it seems to be to others, it’s the most complicated thing in the world to us.
Why? Well . . . exactly, why? What’s the point of doing it? It doesn’t matter how complicated or simple it is, how necessary or unnecessary, how helpful, useful or beneficial. What’s the point?
Making your bed is such a simple thing to do but why? You’re just going to mess it up again later. Why waste that effort? How is that going to help me be less depressed, less suicidal?
Doing laundry, scheduling appointments, showing up on time or at all, returning calls or texts, paying bills, folding your laundry after you do it, putting it away after you fold it . . . There are so many things that other people do so effortlessly and with seemingly no stress at all.
But what’s the point? Is making my bed every morning (or if you’re like I was every afternoon) going to end my depression or suicidal thoughts? No probably not. Most likely no one thing will. It might delay them though. And yes, the depression or suicidal thoughts may be replaced by anger and frustration that you’re making your stupid bed that’s fine. I hate making my bed!
It may also give you a sense that you at least did something today, however mundane it is. And it might be nicer to look at then a bunch of crumpled up sheets and blankets. And it can be anything really. Doing a couple pushups every day or writing a blog post or cleaning the kitty litter or watching an educational video or whatever.
Eventually, one thing becomes easy and then there’s two and three.
But still, what’s the point? Well, the reality of this world is that sometimes the only point is that you did it or maybe you made something a little better than it was even it’s temporary. Will it help you be less depressed or suicidal? Who knows but it’s worth a shot, it may help or it may lead into something else that helps. Regardless, you did something and coming from someone that knows how hard that can be, you deserve a nap! Just maybe on the couch, you don’t want to mess up you newly made bed!